It all began when I stopped running and stopped hiding. I accepted the fact that I would never fit in, but there is indeed a place for me in the Kingdom of God. I'm humbled by the fact that He would choose me before the foundations of the world. I love the truth that He has had plans for me all along to give me hope and a future. Beyond my understanding, It is good to know that a God full of LOVE loves me unconditionally. I've been on this journey with Him since the year my mother died. I've traveled many roads only to discover, He has been with me EVERY step of the way. Even when I walked away doing my own thing and searching for acceptance and security in relationship after relationship, He was there alllllll the time!
After my last "relationship" years ago, I heard God clearly say for me not get into another relationship for a year. I put that in quotes because a lot of times we put ourselves in things and they turn out to be more of a "situationSHIP" than a relationship. All SHIPS don't sail because those with the wrong captain will SINK! Nevertheless, I know now that even with that God had a plan. Although it has been more than a year now, I have found what God wanted me to understand and see all along.
“Purity In The Process” (my first book) became more real to me than anything I could imagine …God literally took me through every page of the book I wrote and more to get the glory out of my life…to get me where He wanted me!
God wanted me to see HIM in my life for what HE could be, ultimately not just seeing myself in a life with Him, but a life through and because of Him. I was never going to find who I was in a relationship...and truth is, I knew who I was but ran from my true self to be accepted. So what if I am a preachers kid with a life story longer than a criminal's rap sheet...I began to find myself when I left the things that covered me up deceitfully. I am a living testimony!!!
Ladies and gentlemen, you must understand that NO earthly relationship can fulfill you and make you WHOLE. You have to find fulfillment in God and HE is the only one that can make you WHOLE! You can’t look for another person to make you COMPLETE, only GOD can do that! I'm talking about a wholeness that exists in your mind, body and soul. Too often we lose ourselves in relationships because we try to be all that the other person wants us to be, to be accepted and loved. We change in order to feel some type of comfort, yet we are and never will be content. CONTENTMENT doesn't exist in CONVENIENCE, only in COVENANT . Truth is, not all the convenient relationships are with the opposite sex, they can be found in friendships that bear bad fruit in your life. Anything toxic is bound to be worthy of the trash...you gotta get rid of it! The moment it is over, we find ourselves still empty because we try to fill ourselves with empty expectations from others. I've been there, did that, and I left it! That place was a dark place and I fought my way out.
It wasn't until I realized the purity of my mind, body, and soul were in jeopardy that I made a decision to let go...to move on....to leave my past and forgive myself and those whom I would never get an apology from. I found my freedom when I walked away in forgiveness. My destiny was calling and I needed to not miss the call!
So I've been on this journey of being and becoming for quite some time, but this time I know it's real. I told God I was "ALL IN"! I have nothing to lose but all to gain following after Him. The more I seek Him, the more He reveals about His character...the more I get to Know Him, I get to know me.
His word says, "Be Ye Holy for I Am Holy" ...it doesn't say "DO holy for I am Holy"... You can't DO anything to become. You BEcome simply by just being. How? Check this out, I made it a point to BE in God's presence and worship...BE found faithful in serving Him...BE found studying and reading His word. BE found in a place of prayer!
I made the decision to BE who God called me to be without anymore hesitation. Did you know your hesitation is an act of disobedience? You delay your progress by not making any progress. Figure that! Not telling God yes or no is just as bad! Sad, but how dare we! (I know that’s not correct English)
Through this journey of becoming...I have had many days of tears, but every moment was worth it to reap this new joy I have for living!
Life begins when you get to the place of dying to your own will and your own selfish desires.
I've been called many things according to what others perceive, but all that matters is what God calls me. I left other people’s opinions when I decided to live GROWN WITH NO REGRETS!
In his eyes, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am created in His image and likeness. I am apart of a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar person...and it is Him who called me out of darkness and into His marvelous light. ( 1 Peter 2:9 KJV)
Know that you are not your past and you are not what has happened to you...You are everything God calls you.
So...who is Regina Wilson? ...Before I was formed in my mothers womb, God knew me and called me to be a prophet to the nations.
Allow me to reintroduce myself …
I am confident.
I am gifted.
I am intelligent.
I am creative.
I am unique.
I am blessed.
I am bold.
I am fearless.
I am a fighter.
I am a warrior.
I am a winner.
I am a writer.
I am accepted.
I am loved.
I am healed.
I am whole.
I am an intercessor.
I am a deliverer.
I am a dreamer and a seer.
I was born for such a time as this.
Born on the first of November and for such a time as this, I Am Regina E. Wilson.
In a race everyone runs, but only one person gets first prize. So run your race to win. To win the contest you must deny yourselves many things that would keep you from doing your best. An athlete goes to all this trouble just to win a blue ribbon or a silver cup,[a] but we do it for a heavenly reward that never disappears. So I run straight to the goal with purpose in every step. I fight to win. I’m not just shadow-boxing or playing around.
( 1 Corinthians 9:24-26 Living Bible Translation)
Believe it or not, I am a runner! Running runs in my family...running started before I was born into this world. Running is in my DNA and that is what I USED to do for quite some time! What did I run to and from? Running to the wrong relationship after relationship, running to the wrong group of friends with no progress, running to alcohol to suppress and avoid hurt, running to depression, running with a lack of identity, running with weight, and ultimately running from GOD and the calling He placed on my life because I wanted to live life my way on my terms.
Do you know that there are some races you’ve got to quit, you’ve got to stop, and you’ve got to give in? Running the race of SIN is not one you will win, you will lose EVERY time! There is no joy or freedom in that race, but by the GRACE of God, HE will RESCUE you and be there for you at the finish line when you fall and come to yourself!!! Yes ma’am and yes sir, that was me! I’’m not ashamed to say that I was running in SIN...running in circles and running after everything but God! However, when I got tired of running on empty, He rescued me and did not leave me where I was, I picked myself up and got back in the RIGHT RACE!!! I was running well before, but I allowed too many things and people to hinder me, including myself!!!
So, I got back on the right track, and in the right race after I thought it was all over, and I am still a RUNNER but with peace and a purpose! I’m running this new race with patience and endurance...I’m disciplining my body so that when I preach to others it’s not all talk and I’m not disqualified!!! I AM A RUNNER!!! I run with my cross! I run in faith to obtain a prize that’s imperishable! I RUN with Christ to obtain my crown! I RUN with freedom! I RUN in healing! I RUN towards holiness and righteousness! I RUN with love and joy!
This race is not easy! Running is not easy, but with practice and the coaching of CHRIST , I am able to do all things!!! I do not RUN alone, I RUN with the help HE has sent me...help that will push me forward, help that will train with me to ensure we both win, help that will heal when I want to fall and quit, and help that will give me strength where I am weak. This race does not have to run by yourself.
I focus on WINNING! I am a runner who wins! I run with the goal in mind! I run with the faith to FINISH the race! I AM A RUNNER! You too can be a RUNNER headed in the RIGHT direction.
I encourage you today, tonight and the rest of the year, lay aside EVERY weight and the sin that entangles you, and RUN with endurance the RACE that is set before you!
Peace & Blessings,